I did it!!!

After working so hard to make it all the way to the university, I've finally made my journey come true. It was hard, and now taking a look at the past i found that a person ones believed in accomplishments. Of course that person was me, when i was way younger, now looking into my present i'm living the "dream" i had many years ago. I can't still believe i made it.

My goal now is to make it for my major in physics. Is not an easy subject and college level will never be compared to the many times i was in a public library reading a science book trying to imagine scenarios in what, why, how and where the laws of physics make an important role in our lives without a teacher actually explaining it to me why everything has a resistance in its state of motion or at rest, what we call "inertia" newton's first law.

 I can't see the world the same way i was seeing it couple years back, maybe it was because i choose to do what i wanted and leave good opportunities for learning science or just simple leave my hometown to stop running in circles and begin my life of my very own, at the end, i think they are both pretty good reasons. And the most cool part is that i'm beginning to learn! and there is so much new things that i can learn from... Is an absolute challenge and is by far something that i never lived, the college life!

Whenever i hear that people get homesick, I can't really share the same thought or at least i have to lie sometimes to have something in common with the people i'm getting to know. I am so exited that I'm taking it easy even if is hard. There is many brilliant people around here, i don't know them yet well because i never had a talk to them about science or other aspects of it, maybe i'll do in the future.

But right now i really like where i am, even if at night there is college parties in the hallway until 4 AM in the morning and i can't sleep...than is the only time i blame the place. Utah, at Weber State University... who would have imagined.... well my first choice was Utah University but i couldn't get in. Oh well... One nail takes out another nail so i guess as far as i'm concerned i'm appreciating my accomplished goal by the second.

I can't go away now and for the most i have to study full time, because i'm not the smartest kid around town.

One of the things about this university is that i fell in love with their library, so many BOOKS!! and so much SILENCE!! That just made my day...when i went to look for a dictionary i was like walking on the beach feeling the wind over my shoulders.

Absolutely marvelous... :D

Well, is time for me to visit my paradise (library) and expend some hours in the computer laboratory.

This truly was part of my learning.

NOEL SOTO is a Spanish singer that wrote "Mi Cancion" probably in the 70's. I was kind of looking for some relaxing music and i found this song, so... I couldn't stop hearing this song for like "quite some time" and I just felt really identified with every single word in the lyrics, so I'm posting the English translation of the lyrics and the video of the song (sorry the video is in spanish :P). Enjoy!

NOEL SOTO


"MI CANCION (MY SONG)"

I walk

Without looking back
My life so far...
I try to forget...
Each sunrise...
I have to delete.
Tracks of a past,
That will not return
The soul is… I was running away from loneliness…
My heart took seriously what was only a joke and between dales, gives and takes
I’m just with my song..!
That woman, all taught me.
She was more than Professor Sir
Then lost her without knowing why
And what I suffered, I will never forget
I believed that never again I would fall in love
But life kept me more surprises, joys and sorrows to the beat of my song..!
I feel reborn deep inside me, the illusion of peace, and the faith lost. 
When the sun raises everything will change with another lesson, and I’ll start again
Tomorrow I’ll sleep in the hotel “happiness” and the baggage I carry is a suitcase full of hopes
If that does not reach me it will arrive with my song.

My finger numbness.

Is been quite some time since my last post! gosh and is also been almost a month in my work! I'm so proud of myself, I'm making some significant progress! yeah me!!!

I'm so proud to announce that I bought my new laptop, it was coming any ways so I bought it. The old one got a "short circuit" and sadly-- I wasted almost 50$ to buy a new power adapter to it, which BTW its working perfectly fine...LOL!

I had a lot of info so I guess i have two options this time, one weather I open the laptop myself and take out the hard drive to recover the files, or go to a computer joint to do that for me, but that would cost me another 50$. Oh well, I think I might do option number one.

More news!!! yesterday at work I almost chopped my index finger while sharping my knife!!! HAHAHaH! at least i know I still alive and not dead! Dammit it hurt like the very same Hell! blood was being shoot from my finger like and Alfred Hitchcock terror movie. ROFL! Any ways I got a bandage and kept working, must safe some money for college. Other news! i got my bike stolen the other day!!! yeeeehhh great progress!!! now i have to buy a new one and I have to ride the bus until than!!

Well, I guess so far so good. I was under huge amounts of anger, but i guess that's life sometimes, when you turn your back for a sec shit happens. Other news!!! I'M SETTING UP MY YOUTUBE CHANNEL! I just need to buy the digital camera and I'm making the presentation for the channel and the pilot program NEXT MONTH yeeeh!. Is going to be interesting "I hope" so stay TUNNED!

The good moments makes me feel good.

I'm happy, I must confess that after all the hard work I've done in the new place my boss congrats me for the amazing job I'm doing so far. That is like good to me, I mean, despite how dark life can get, there is always something that will shine ahead.

The most grateful part of the cake, is that I'm starting to realize that I can't put the world upon my shoulders every time I look into the past, the best way for me to keep the progress is to give myself some value to all the job I've done and give myself great self esteem after such reward of congrats for the good job i'm doing. That is helping me to overcome some issues in my life and to confront my minotaur; my heart gets fulfill when good job is done and satisfaction comes as a reward inertially.

I'm going to keep up the good work! it seems to help me out a lot! :D

Lobster: Impossible

The guilt! JFC! I almost had to pay 5 lobsters the other day because I didn't know how to cook them..or at least I thought knew how. Well, so far the stress with the lobsters and me were completely an odyssey.

This is the story of Alan Cedeno, me, yes me, a guy who´s a line cook who thought that knew everything about cooking techniques and suddenly I make a huge mistake, I boiled them in cold water, all 5 of them in the potter; well almost boiled them because my boss, came to safe the lobsters...LOL!

(If you have bad dreams when you hear a lobster being cooked alive and feel the lobster's pain, skip next paragraph).

The gorgeous and fresh lobsters were waiting in the potter to die slowly while me was doing something else, when my boss came almost punched me on the face LOL! and told me if i Knew how to cook the lobster , I told him I think I knew, he said well that's not how we do it here...I was like DANGIT! and me thinking, ( I don´t want to get charge for the lobster...I don't want to get charge for the lobsters..) surprisingly he taught me how to cook them with all the patience in the world..( one of the reasons I like the guy, his got bad temper but reasons at the same time..only bad temper for like 20 secs than nothing happened), so what he did was to tell me to get a metal bowl with ice and water, made me take the lobsters out of the potter and than he showed me how to cut the tails, knuckles, and head out. Later get the tails and knuckles to boil and the head safe them for a "bisque"  which is supposedly a a crab cream soup, but in Fratelli Lyon where I work is with Lobster..so any ways after the lobster mission was done... I was embarrassed ROFL!

I learned a new way of cooking lobster and it was a really hard mission, but at the end of the day everything went smoothly.

Rack or Rag? WTH!?

Yesterday while doing some "mise in place" french term for putting in place I got so confuse by the English words such as Rack and Rag. I mean Rack is a frame in which thins are hung or kept; which is used to put food or other ingredients already prepared to have some order, and Rag is a piece of cloth used to clean, polish or dust.

It was funny because the chef while in service hours he was asking me for a Rag and I brought him the Rack... HAHAHA!

I was so *red* I didn't know where to hide, but it was funny. My boss is not the same guy in work than out of work but when he is in work, dammit! he is very good! so I didn't know what to reply when he asked me if I ever worked in a kitchen before...ROFL! He even told me that if I came from a McDonald's or something related with junk food restaurants. I said NO!  - Of course not! and he was like - Seriously!? are you sure you're telling me the truth?! I was really scared at first but hey the Rack and Rag thing was a new thing to me, he even told me if he wanted him to speak Spanish LOL! - I can speak Spanish perfectly 'papa' and I was  like - Hell no!  :D  that was like...I need to hide I need to hide hahahaha.

By far he is the best chef and boss I've met so far, hope things will be good this next 3 months ahead.

My rind of soul

I have good news! I got my new job on Friday and I'm officially permanent in the restaurant now! YEEEEEEEEEHHH!!! This is a job that will provide me with moneyz!!! I'm so happy. Right now all I have to do is work my ass of and well resist the pressure. I'm a man I have to learn how to handle pressure; in the other hand now that I have my sit paid for my SAT test, my calculator and now I have the job...All I have to do is to take things normally ...easy...like a ripple in the water to make things easier and to rinse all the bad stuff within me to make a better version of me. All those roars! all that madness! all that resentment... I have to deal it with my mind and watch out for my health.

Health is better, is important.

Is going to be a rough 6 months ahead before I start the University, but I will feel proud of everything I've done within myself and for me. I'm tired and sick of rivalry and all I'm going to do is be wise, because after all what it matters is my health, I hate depression. I want to become supple with my friends, family and working partners. I won't surmise to things that will hurt me, and give me depression. Instead I'm just going to do some synergy against that to prevent anything that would mess up my brain system.

No arrogance, no hate, no resentment.